Ever have those moments, those times, when you are just hugely disappointed? And I'm not talking about the - 'aw, that sucks,' - lame kind of disappointment. Like the gut-wrenching, chest-clutching, whyyyyyy? disappointment (ok, I admit, that was a bit dramatic - but that's how it really went in my head tonight). The kind that makes you lose faith in a person. You surround yourself with people that you trust, depend, and respect. People, who collectively, know all your ins and outs - all your secret hopes and wants. Yet they knowingly abandon you at a time when you need them most. I've been feeling that sense of disappointment a lot more these days. Or maybe I've only been noticing it now that I have all this time on my hands? Or maybe all of a sudden I've developed higher expectations of my friends? I'm not sure, but I know that I don't like it. I guess all I can do is try my best to be honest and not disappoint those that I care about.
[Note that as I was writing this, one of my girlfriends called to tell me about a disappointing situation that's occurred in her life. After we talked and cried, I wondered - we can forgive and forget when people make us mad... But can we forgive and forget when someone really disappoints us?]